The Contours of Our Lives

861908007_5b4984449aIf you’ve been reading this site for any amount of time, you’ve figured out that my affinity is for dark, menacing Phish.  The flip side of this musical coin are Phish’s many blissful improvisations, such as “Hood,” “Reba,” or “Slave;” songs that you must lack a pulse to not feel drawn to.  Yet, Phish isn’t just about the peaks, they are about the natural contour of their shows.  When they play a memorable one, the dynamic of the music mirrors the spectrum of human experience.  While the band often accesses the more tender points of life via delicate improvisation, they also do it through the use of ballads.

While many a jaded fan consider Phish ballads time for a “piss break,” they are anything but.  I never really grasped the concept of leaving the room while Phish was onstage; you just never know what could happen, and you miss the full experience.  The band doesn’t play ballads to fill time in the set, rather, they are part of the organic flow of the Phish phenomenon.  Sure, they could play “Tweezer > Mike’s > YEM > Tube > Antelope > Weekapaug,” but then they wouldn’t be Phish (though you phili6wouldn’t see me complaining.)  Phish is about the totality of our lives, not just the fun and exciting parts, but the pensive and reflective ones, too.  Often times, Phish ballads are a central way to access those places in our minds and in our hearts that we don’t readily visit.  But the beauty of Phish’s slower songs exists in their congruency to the universal human emotions that we all feel.

If you keep an open soul to receive the Phish, you have come to appreciate and understand the purpose of these songs.  Several are able to artistically convey feelings of loss, desperation, longing, and fear with rich imagery-laden lyrics.  “If I Could,” expresses the helplessness of someone who cannot meet the needs of their lover, and who futilely tries to figure a way to make things work.  “Wading In a Velvet Sea,” a poignant ballad, both musically and lyrically, exposes a vulnerable narrator who longs for “moments in a box” representing his past days of connection that have long since passed.  “Fast Enough For You,” is another similarly themed song, expressing the loss of love and the inability to recapture times gone by. “Lifeboy’s” liquid music matches its introspective lyrics- “Dangling here between the light above and blue below that drags me down.”  These aren’t “cheesy” themes; this is the fabric of life.

pict0020Using these more melancholic songs, Phish is able to access the parts of our lives in which we have felt such loss and pain; and who hasn’t?  Tapping into life’s universal themes, the band employs these songs as an entry point into our feelings.  Take, for example, “Dirt.”  Its simple melodies and lyrics speak volumes about a human emotion that everyone has felt- the desire to disappear from the madness and confusion that often plagues us in our everyday lives.  Sure, these songs may not be what you or I want to hear at a particular moment, but their rightful place in the arc of a Phish show is undeniable.

However, not all ballads are of somber subject.  Phish has an ability to capture our imaginations with ballads, touching on the more tender side of life.  “Billy Breathes” is the delicate story of a child’s birth told through majestically composed music.  “Train Song” captures the night time tranquility of the countryside as two lovers share one of life’s soulful moments together. “Strange Design” represents life-affirming advice about our struggle to “keep the tires off the lines,” sending the message that whatever trials and tribulations are put in our path, the human spirit can persevere.  “Just relax you’re doing fine, swimming in this real thing I call life.”  These are meaningful life messages that are often lost in fans’ hyped up desires for the next huge chunk of improv.  Don’t worry, that jam will come; but they key to Phish is “the moment,” and these songs are as much a part of “the moment” as any.  Some may not want to accept this as true, desiring more time spent with rocking improv, but those people are swimming upstream, against the natural current of a Phish show.  “The trick is to surrender to the flow,” and these are necessary parts of Phish’s natural flow.

dscf29380The band can also bring us to a place of childhood wonder with their slower songs.  “Prince Caspian,” while almost universally disliked, boasts a fantastic voyage “afloat upon the waves.”  Like a nighttime reverie of a young child, the subject longs for the wonder and adventure of the fictional Prince, alluding to his adventures in Narnia.  Even if you never read “The Chronicles of Narnia” as a child and don’t connect with the lyrics of this song, Trey’s soaring guitar solo narrates the triumphant plot for you.

If you were to go through each and every Phish ballad, you could connect a genuine human experience to each, giving these songs an emotional legitimacy that is often ignored due to their tempo.  Without these interludes between the “Bowies” and “Splits” and “Stashs,” there would be no natural curvature to an evening with Phish.  Countless DJs and other bands can provide a non-stop dance party, but Phish goes deeper into the soul; deeper into what makes us human.  It is this multi-dimensional richness that defines the Phish experience.  If you don’t get what I’m saying, well…just go take a piss.



If you want to kick it to some electronic beats after the shows, the Bay Area’s Symbiosis Events and ArtNowSF are teaming up with The Beat Register to throw down three parties with some eclectic lineups at the Tribeca in Newport News.  Details can be found here. Tickets can be bought here.




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7.11.96 Shepherd’s Bush Empire, London, UK DBSD < LINK

7.11.96 Shepherd’s Bush Empire, London, UK DBSD <  TORRENT LINK

Europe '96 Poster

Europe '96 Poster

Here we have a DSBD copy of the band’s first headlining gig during Europe ’96.  In between these few shows, Phish would play one-set openers for Santana, prepping the European audience for return tours over the next two summers.  Some of the treats in this show include a rare “Harry Hood” set opener, “2001 > Maze,” first set versions of “Stash” and “Reba,” as well as the UK debut of The Beatles’ “A Day In the Life.”

I: Runaway Jim, Cavern, Reba, I Didn’t Know, Sparkle, Stash, Scent of a Mule, Sample in a Jar

II: Harry Hood > Bouncing Around the Room, Also Sprach Zarathustra > Maze, Lizards, HYHU > Terrapin > HYHU, You Enjoy Myself, Hello My Baby

E: A Day in the Life


138 Responses to “The Contours of Our Lives”

  1. SOAM Says:

    neither-they are my initials.

    anyone know the deal with doobage possesion in VA-Fine-misde-felony?

    I don’t need some shitbag in a tye dye to stroll over while Im getting a pre gig wig on and bust out a badge and pop me, dig?

  2. cottle Says:

    I’m guessing misdemeanor/fine unless you’ve got a backpack full, all split up for resale. I wouldn’t lose any sleep over it.

  3. SOAM Says:

    I love that shit way too much to sell it.


  4. dviens Says:

    I like Prince Caspian.

  5. SOAM Says:

    Prince Crapstain

  6. hairy pood Says:

    ^Buffalo Bill: Good call on “Come On Baby Lets Go Downtown.” Its was actually written and sung by Danny Whitten until he died.

    “Sure enough,
    they’ll be sellin’ stuff
    When the moon begins to rise.
    Pretty bad when
    you’re dealin’ with the man,
    And the light shines in your eyes.”

  7. cactus Says:

    What about Frankie Says….definitely a mellow tune to wind you down and let you catch your breath. And of course the layered vocals of the last verse.

    relax the world will spin beside
    itself and suck you in
    with threats and hopes beyond compare

    I’ve lost my mind
    I’ve lost my way
    I’m bound to lose
    You wonder where I am

  8. buffalo bill Says:

    well aware. Crazy Horse’s early album, I believe their second but the best, before they hooked up with Neil, is amazing. Probably one of my top 20 rock records of all time. A lot of Neil’s early electric sound was developed from this band. If you have not heard it check it out. Early 70’s LA rock n roll played to perfection top to bottom.

    After Danny Died (needle and the damage done) Neil made the song his own and it became a staple of his live shows.

  9. SOAM Says:

    saw trey open lupo’s with tasty go downtown recently

  10. Billy Breathes Says:

    It’s Ice –> Brother

  11. buffalo bill Says:

    Neil and Danny actually wrote Downtown together, I believe. There is another track on this record Neil wrote entirely.

    This is really the first Crazy Horse record, before becoming Neil’s back up band. I almost forgot the first one is under another name. The Rockets, if I remember correctly.

    The Trey version is close to Neil’s version on Tonigh’s The Night and being the more popular, and Trey a huge Neil fan, I believe this is the version and not the Crazy Horse inspiring Trey’s arrangement.

  12. SOAM Says:

    cortez-the ultimate Neil-20 minutes till lift off….digging a pbr and a hot antelope from Lemonwheel

  13. cactus Says:

    Been you to have any Garden of Infinite Pleasantry…man…

    Have to agree, that is a slammin Antelope.

  14. JPhishman Says:

    Wading was the song that really hooked me on Phish. Ghost version. Trey’s lead was just unlike any guitar playing I had ever heard at the time and I listened to that album like crazy after I saw my first show w/ zero knowledge of Phish. Went out and bought LP 06 and the live version totally blew my mind…. from then on seeing Velvet live was my goal. Setting out for the east coast for the last leg of ’04 I knew I would get my wish. Sure enough in my 10th and final show I got the most emotional version imaginable following an absolutely ripping DWD. My Phish dream come true! It had all come full circle. It was meant to be. This really was my band…… just goes to show…. the connection….. it’s there.

    and now my new Phish dream will be fulfilled in a matter of months…. just seeing them play again… at the Fox no less. Fluffhead at the Fox!!!

  15. JPhishman Says:

    There are no easy piss break with Phish, but if your dancing is impaired by bladder pressure you gotta just cut your losses and do it. If you don’t they could be busting into Mike’s next and then you will just have to piss yourself…..

  16. showhe Says:

    Somone’s listening to the Grent Went livephish cast…good stuff….loved the first set Maze. It really helps to get through a friday afternoon at work.

  17. showhe Says:

    ^Clifford Ball… brain is frazzled due to this antelope.

  18. SOAM Says:

    did you see the lump?

  19. Mutha_Ohks Says:

    Love all the Neil talk. How ’bout Page singing a gentle “Borrowed Tune?”

  20. showhe Says:

    I didn’t see it but I felt it…damn antelope lump.

  21. SOAM Says:

    I’d like to hear feel, feel , feel my heat-long live diggler

  22. guyforget Says:

    Love Neil Young. Always stoked for an Albequerque and Come on Baby was a real treat at Irvine 00. A phish cover of Rockin in the Free world or Like a Hurricane would be sweet.

  23. SOAM Says:

    I try to convey what you strive to condone.

  24. Mutha_Ohks Says:

    The “Down By the River” at Farm Aid ’98 was a great moment in rock history.

  25. cactus Says:

    Boogie on Reggae Woman Nights…classic.

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