The Contours of Our Lives

861908007_5b4984449aIf you’ve been reading this site for any amount of time, you’ve figured out that my affinity is for dark, menacing Phish.  The flip side of this musical coin are Phish’s many blissful improvisations, such as “Hood,” “Reba,” or “Slave;” songs that you must lack a pulse to not feel drawn to.  Yet, Phish isn’t just about the peaks, they are about the natural contour of their shows.  When they play a memorable one, the dynamic of the music mirrors the spectrum of human experience.  While the band often accesses the more tender points of life via delicate improvisation, they also do it through the use of ballads.

While many a jaded fan consider Phish ballads time for a “piss break,” they are anything but.  I never really grasped the concept of leaving the room while Phish was onstage; you just never know what could happen, and you miss the full experience.  The band doesn’t play ballads to fill time in the set, rather, they are part of the organic flow of the Phish phenomenon.  Sure, they could play “Tweezer > Mike’s > YEM > Tube > Antelope > Weekapaug,” but then they wouldn’t be Phish (though you phili6wouldn’t see me complaining.)  Phish is about the totality of our lives, not just the fun and exciting parts, but the pensive and reflective ones, too.  Often times, Phish ballads are a central way to access those places in our minds and in our hearts that we don’t readily visit.  But the beauty of Phish’s slower songs exists in their congruency to the universal human emotions that we all feel.

If you keep an open soul to receive the Phish, you have come to appreciate and understand the purpose of these songs.  Several are able to artistically convey feelings of loss, desperation, longing, and fear with rich imagery-laden lyrics.  “If I Could,” expresses the helplessness of someone who cannot meet the needs of their lover, and who futilely tries to figure a way to make things work.  “Wading In a Velvet Sea,” a poignant ballad, both musically and lyrically, exposes a vulnerable narrator who longs for “moments in a box” representing his past days of connection that have long since passed.  “Fast Enough For You,” is another similarly themed song, expressing the loss of love and the inability to recapture times gone by. “Lifeboy’s” liquid music matches its introspective lyrics- “Dangling here between the light above and blue below that drags me down.”  These aren’t “cheesy” themes; this is the fabric of life.

pict0020Using these more melancholic songs, Phish is able to access the parts of our lives in which we have felt such loss and pain; and who hasn’t?  Tapping into life’s universal themes, the band employs these songs as an entry point into our feelings.  Take, for example, “Dirt.”  Its simple melodies and lyrics speak volumes about a human emotion that everyone has felt- the desire to disappear from the madness and confusion that often plagues us in our everyday lives.  Sure, these songs may not be what you or I want to hear at a particular moment, but their rightful place in the arc of a Phish show is undeniable.

However, not all ballads are of somber subject.  Phish has an ability to capture our imaginations with ballads, touching on the more tender side of life.  “Billy Breathes” is the delicate story of a child’s birth told through majestically composed music.  “Train Song” captures the night time tranquility of the countryside as two lovers share one of life’s soulful moments together. “Strange Design” represents life-affirming advice about our struggle to “keep the tires off the lines,” sending the message that whatever trials and tribulations are put in our path, the human spirit can persevere.  “Just relax you’re doing fine, swimming in this real thing I call life.”  These are meaningful life messages that are often lost in fans’ hyped up desires for the next huge chunk of improv.  Don’t worry, that jam will come; but they key to Phish is “the moment,” and these songs are as much a part of “the moment” as any.  Some may not want to accept this as true, desiring more time spent with rocking improv, but those people are swimming upstream, against the natural current of a Phish show.  “The trick is to surrender to the flow,” and these are necessary parts of Phish’s natural flow.

dscf29380The band can also bring us to a place of childhood wonder with their slower songs.  “Prince Caspian,” while almost universally disliked, boasts a fantastic voyage “afloat upon the waves.”  Like a nighttime reverie of a young child, the subject longs for the wonder and adventure of the fictional Prince, alluding to his adventures in Narnia.  Even if you never read “The Chronicles of Narnia” as a child and don’t connect with the lyrics of this song, Trey’s soaring guitar solo narrates the triumphant plot for you.

If you were to go through each and every Phish ballad, you could connect a genuine human experience to each, giving these songs an emotional legitimacy that is often ignored due to their tempo.  Without these interludes between the “Bowies” and “Splits” and “Stashs,” there would be no natural curvature to an evening with Phish.  Countless DJs and other bands can provide a non-stop dance party, but Phish goes deeper into the soul; deeper into what makes us human.  It is this multi-dimensional richness that defines the Phish experience.  If you don’t get what I’m saying, well…just go take a piss.



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7.11.96 Shepherd’s Bush Empire, London, UK DBSD < LINK

7.11.96 Shepherd’s Bush Empire, London, UK DBSD <  TORRENT LINK

Europe '96 Poster

Europe '96 Poster

Here we have a DSBD copy of the band’s first headlining gig during Europe ’96.  In between these few shows, Phish would play one-set openers for Santana, prepping the European audience for return tours over the next two summers.  Some of the treats in this show include a rare “Harry Hood” set opener, “2001 > Maze,” first set versions of “Stash” and “Reba,” as well as the UK debut of The Beatles’ “A Day In the Life.”

I: Runaway Jim, Cavern, Reba, I Didn’t Know, Sparkle, Stash, Scent of a Mule, Sample in a Jar

II: Harry Hood > Bouncing Around the Room, Also Sprach Zarathustra > Maze, Lizards, HYHU > Terrapin > HYHU, You Enjoy Myself, Hello My Baby

E: A Day in the Life


138 Responses to “The Contours of Our Lives”

  1. guyforget Says:

    ^indeed, that was ill.

  2. Baxter Says:

    Crazy Horse tune at Classic TAB Orpheum “Come on Baby Let’s Go Downtown” was pretty rockin, but I prefer the old Phishy cover of Lynard Skynard’s “Ballad of Curtis Lowe”, always a classic.

  3. SOAM Says:

    Shaggy better have his shit together casue I want to boogie.

  4. cactus Says:

    Swim with the Cactusssss and float with the stone.

  5. headband25 Says:

    Once again you have found a way to convey a point that so many people don’t get. One of the best moments of my whole life was when they set the sun (without ever looking behind them) to Reba at the Gorge in 98. The FEFY that followed was one of the most beautiful things i’ve ever heard. This set was jam packed with epiphanies for me!!!

    See you soon!

  6. SOAM Says:

    when we meet again there will be 4 days until the mothership lands

    gotta take a 2 day break from this computer shit-rots the soul.

    Stillwater rules

  7. Billy Breathes Says:


  8. Frankie Says:

    Speaking of Neil Young, check out this set of Marco Benevento’s Quartet the Killer from this week at Yoshi’s, playing the music of Neil Young…

    Really great stuff!

  9. guyforget Says:

    Miner, i have to say, truly a well thought perspective today.

  10. Baxter Says:

    I got your drinking money, tune up your dobro…

  11. full tour: announced! Says:

    F.E.F.Y. 7-4-1999 lakewood…..just the darkest, heaviest solo i have possibly ever heard…the lights just started to kick in with the sun going down…just the sickest version i ever got to see…that melted perfectly into bowie…

  12. Billy Breathes Says:

    full tour: I WAS THERE FOR THAT!!! So devilishly pleasurable….and then into Bowie had me happily frightened.

  13. Baxter Says:

    OMG, I just found the first time I saw Phish posted somewhere, and I have never seen this posted anywhere! There were only 60 people there, and half of ’em were drunk phrat boys drinkin at the bar sayin: who is that cool hippy band. The show was: Saturday, September 16, 1988
    Nick’s Basement, University of New Hampshire, Durham, NH

    I know not too many of you get the Curtis Loew reference, but they used to play it a lot in 1988-1989. And it is a beautiful ballad.

  14. full tour: announced! Says:

    @ billy …those were such great shows. Just thinking about the electricity in the air on the 4th of july gets me the shivers. The air was literally static charged..with fireworks going off everywhere. The combination of the 4th of july and phish is the most american thing since apple pie and old glory! Just as new years shows have that special vibe…4th of july phish makes you wanna break out the red white and blue face paint and go tribal on that shizz….

    How about that second set? man that was epic…ghost (with those big white baloons with glowsticks in them) > slave was serious…then that Horse > silent….then the haevy metal black sabbath wilson….mikes > monkey > paug…and not just any paug…but a sick ass pumped up paug.

    quadruple encore….drummer boy > carini…meatstick…star spangled banner…shit i’ll never forget that…those ground rattling fireworks…


  15. nonoyolker Says:

    Loved the post, huge fan of the ballads. FEFY, waste, Lifeboy, B+R, Wading, hell even Secret Smile put me right in that mind frame. I find these are the only songs that i turn to album versions for (though there have been some nice ones done live).
    Glad someone mentioned the fair aid Down By The River jam with Neil. I randomly listened to that jam again yesterday. Shit gets gulley! There is a tight video on you tube of it too.

  16. Mitch Says:

    My Clifford ball DVDs just came in the mail today. I got wrist bands and a Doniac Schvice from 96. I’ll post pics online soon.

  17. Mr.Miner Says:

    ^ wonder where my discs are

  18. full tour: announced! Says:

    ^ mine came yesterday….i chose the overnight option.

  19. lot rat Says:

    “headin out for the east coast, lord knows Ive paid my dues…”

    Gotta catch the red eye back to the land of ice and snow…spun round

    1 week from right now the lights will be going down.

    Fuckin A, its HERE

  20. Mr.Miner Says:

    Hampton will be raging one weak from right now!!!!!!

  21. full tour: announced! Says:

    can i get a HELLS YEAH?!?!

  22. Uncle Ben Says:

    Piss break????? LSD and MDMA both have effects of hyponatremia or uninary retention???????? Boozers

  23. Read Icculus Says:

    ….one week!

  24. ShipOfFools Says:

    I’ve been wondering this for a while: what is a DSBD? Does it mean it came from a soundboard patch or what?

  25. full tour: announced! Says:

    shrooms make you pee….and when you do it feels really weird….nothing like the walls of the bathroom breathing in and out while your at the trough….

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