Still Waiting…

Pre-show 3.6.09 (C.Taylor Crothers)

Pre-show 3.6.09 (C.Taylor Crothers)

Waiting.  Almost the entirety of our Phish lives are spent waiting.  Waiting and anticipating the time of our lives.  Unlike any other anticipation, that for a Phish show can be both paralyzing and inspiring.  Prone to spontaneous bursts of excitement, we navigate the days, weeks, and months before a show with a different sort of smile.  Despite what our days and weeks look like, we possess knowledge that trumps it all- Phish is right around the corner.  So we fill the time.  Listening to old shows, surfing Phish internet space, posting on message boards, guessing what might happen when the time comes- we continuously inflate our collective balloon of excitement to capacity and beyond.  The ordinary no longer feels so mundane knowing that we have a date with the extraordinary.

Miami '03 (Unknown)

Miami '03 (Unknown)

From the moment shows are announced, we begin waiting for the ticket process- “mail order,” on-sales, then trades.  Once we get our virtual hands on our tickets, then the anticipation truly kicks in and things become involuntary.  This is when your mind begins migrating to Phish when you should be focusing on tasks at hand.  Surges of energy begin to shoot through your body out of nowhere, making those ultimate moments seem almost tangible.  It is all within reach- and seems a lifetime away.  But the emotions begin to bubble up months beforehand, intensifying as the calendar pages turn.  You know what you’re in for, and the best part about it is that you have no idea what will happen!

Hampon (J.Kravitz)

3.6.09 Hampton (J.Kravitz)

Anticipation without expectation; getting excited for the unknown- it almost seems like a paradox.  How can you get excited for something when you don’t know what will happen?  Well, we have a hunch.  But when expectations are dropped and we connect to that excitement without knowing or caring what is in store, we are prepared to receive the Phish.  Following your bliss, knowing you will arrive, and giving yourself to that unknown journey; this is the fabric of the experience.  Taking part in what will unfold- living it, not thinking about it- is one of the purest feelings we have left.  Turning ourselves over, dropping our egos, and allowing Phish to lead the way- if only for three hours a night- is the most magical feeling in the world; a feeling for which we would wait forever.  Considering the enormity, how can we not get periodic butterflies and shots of adrenaline, even if the shows are still a month away?  Once the dates are circled, it’s on, and it’s only a matter of time.

Hampton (J.Kravitz)

3.7.09 Hampton (J.Kravitz)

But as blast off approaches, time begins to crawl.  The week, even the day, before a show can seem like a stint in The Twilight Zone as we await entry through the pearly gates.  Anticipation transforms into pre-show anxiety, knowing that whatever happens, you won’t be totally the same afterward- but that is the beauty of it all.  Phish is life-changing, and when forced to await such an event, the rivers of possibilities overflow.  Even once we are inside the venue, the hour before show time might as well be a day- time turns molasses as we await our destiny.  Our mind begins to race, knowing that all of those months and all of these dreams, have led up to this moment.  The time is now, and that reality can be as overwhelming and as powerful as the anticipation; the adventure is finally upon us.

In a mere twenty-five days, our wait will be over.  While we might feel like bursting right now and May 31st seems like it will never arrive, it most certainly will.  And as the first notes of the rest of our lives wash over us, that feeling of endless anticipation will dissolve into a sweet surrender to the majesty of the moment.  And so it will begin again.



3.14.92 Roseland Ballroom, NYC SBD < LINK

3.14.92 Roseland Ballroom, NYC SBD < TORRENT LINK

Phish '92 (J.Pollock)

Phish '92 (J.Pollock)

This is the first of Phish’s four performances at New York’s famed venue, and this show paints a picture of a dynamic band about to hit the first real peak of their career in the spring of ’92.  Every band is psyched the first time they play the Roseland, and Phish was no exception, putting together a smoking setlist for the show.  The night’s highlight comes with the gorgeous “Harry Hood” late in the second set, as the band expounded on the intro- something seldom seen- teased “Off To See the Wizard,” and drove the jam to the top with emotion and intent.

I: Runaway Jim, Cavern, Reba, Sparkle, Foam, Rift, Stash, Fee, Chalk Dust Torture, Take the A-Train, Mike’s Song > I Am Hydrogen > Weekapaug Groove

II: Golgi Apparatus, Llama, The Squirming Coil, Split Open and Melt, Bouncing Around the Room, Oh Kee Pa Ceremony > Suzy Greenberg, Harry Hood, Cold as Ice > Cracklin’ Rosie > Cold as Ice, Possum

E: Sleeping Monkey*, Good Times Bad Times*

*With John Popper (Blues Traveler) on harmonica.


118 Responses to “Still Waiting…”

  1. msbjivein Says:

    “We Are Prepared to Receive The Phish” Man that’s deep. LOL!

  2. snigglebeach Says:

    just curious Miner,

    Are you driving east from San Fran and the following tour back??

    Or you flying east and doing a rental car thing?? i got it easy cause the first show is only a few miles away. on the flip side i have to work the morning after Fenway.

  3. voopa Says:

    Hey gang,

    Over the last 2 weeks I’ve managed to score 3 Shoreline lawns for under face on ebay. The deals are out there!

  4. vtsnowboarder802 Says:

    fenphish w/ priority shipping arrived over a week ago.

  5. msbjivein Says:

    Yeah, I’ve scored two Alpine Lawns for each night for face through some phans. There are people getting rid of tix for face or less. I think a lot of peeps got more than they needed now it’s biting them in the ass.

  6. Schplack Says:

    It is awful tough, the idea of making it through the tour with financial times as they are. I just realized I’m moving from Indy to Portland early July and had to sell Knoxville, Deer Creek, and Alpine tickets just to have the funds for the move. The good news? The patience to to wait till August (sans the two ‘roo shows I’m still going to) will deliver me to the Gorge for the first time ever. No Chance for me to make it to Phenway, but I can’t wait to hear you all rave about it, building my anticipation all the more.

  7. Twiggy Says:

    Including me. I have two lawns for each night at Alpine if anyone is interested. Just want face.

  8. Manny Phresh Says:

    Why is there so much kindness in the midwest and west, and for the most part just greed in the Northeast. Is there something in the water or air?

  9. fromthetub Says:

    I think it’s really interesting to think about anticipation and expectation. I can honestly say that — perhaps for the first time ever — I had no expectations going into Hampton. Zero. I just kept thinking that I needed to be there upon Phish’s return, and that it couldn’t be any worse than Coventry (I didn’t want to be let down again). Of course I had major pre-show jitters, especially around loosing my ticket! But I think because I had no expectations, my mind was clear and I ended up being blown away. Stunned, actually. It might have been the rush of seeing them for the first time in 5 years, but I kind of had my best shows ever… possibly from having no expectations and just going with the flow. Just my thoughts. 🙂

  10. old dude Says:

    living in such close proximity to so many other toolbags tends to make a person bitter and jaded.

    the only cure is more phish.

  11. wanderin Says:

    @ Voopa … The deals are out there!

    Except where I want to go….;-)
    who has my spac lawn !!!

  12. Chalkdustin Says:

    Midwest love.
    Who needs my Knoxville?

  13. bhizzle Says:

    old dude – I think you may be onto something. I used to live in a more rural area of New York state and was way more laid back and care free. Now that I moved to a more urban environment, with more people acting selfish and disrespectful I slowly, unknowingly started a transformation myself. I am more dog eat dog, rat race but not by choice.

    “the only cure is more phish” indeed!

    have darien lawn. looking for spac lawn.

  14. SOAM Says:

    Stereotyping could be worse than being the actual toolbag-That’s like saying all phish fans are dirty drugged out wanna be hippies. I bathe.

  15. voopa Says:


    That’s a bit of a generalization, no? FWIW, I bought two Shoreline lawns for face from someone on this board…who lives in NY. And he emailed me! The only solicitation I made was on the ticket board. He actually reached out and offered face when he easily could have tried to turn a profit.

  16. EL Duderino Says:

    Bathing is good SOAM I like being clean too 🙂

  17. Manny Phresh Says:

    I want to quit my job and go on Phish tour. I hate my job!!!!!!!!!!! F*ck growing up.

  18. msbjivein Says:

    I miss being a dirty hippie! The good ol days.

  19. Manny Phresh Says:

    Yes, it is a big generalization on my part. I understand that the whole issue with Northeast tickets is strictly a supply and demand problem.

  20. whole tour! Says:

    it’s now considered ‘hip’ to bring barnyard animals on the lot. there was a goat on lot for the dead in chicago. please leave your goats, chickens, pigs, horses, and cows at home this summer!

  21. Sugar Says:

    Manny — I have Hartford lawn seats for face+fees if you’re interested. Got extra and friends bailed. mrshafrir (at) gmail (dot) com.

  22. whole tour! Says:

    the only sheep i want to see this summer would be phish covering pink floyd’s ‘animals’

  23. msbjivein Says:

    That’s animal cruelty right.

  24. Jack O Roses Says:

    The original sheepman, from Woodstock ’69:

  25. guyforget Says:

    may need an extra shoreline lawn. somebody got my back if so?

    as for the east coast rat race discussion, nobody is breaking ground here. that’s why the east coast is the capital of the world.

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